One hour lecture about my life

Here are some notes from an one hour lecture by Professor Grace Look:

Chapter One:
Stop romanticizing with time.

Chapter Two:
What kind of person you want to be?

Chapter Three:
Will being in the comfort zone help you achieve that?

Chapter Four:
Will you be the person your family and most importantly yourself can be proud of?

Chapter Five:
It take a few seconds to make a decision (or rather to say/declare what you want) and the rest of your time is to manifest it and make it come true.

Twice a year event for me

Call in retail therapy or necessity.

November is coming to an end which also means Christmas is coming.
The Merry-Cherry atmosphere got to me every year.
This feelings can be backfired too. If things go awry, I will be devastated.

When someone asks me, 'are u a shopaholic?'
I would gladly say, " Nope."
Frankly, I rarely shop. All the time in the malls, I only eat and eat and eat.

After experienced it twice, I think I'm an implosive shopper! Darn.
I could spend not a single cent for 5 months at least and spent nearly 4 figures within 3 weeks.
Oh my, disastrous.

Here's when justification coming in,
It's all good purchase with quality, worth money value and it's Necessary! hahaha

It's been a very long time when only SL and I hit the mall on weekends.
I was being all goodie goodie when she was in gym in the morning. I only spent 100 on Barista merchandise , Beausta Bear (Ask my sister with bears-in-Ginger Breadman outfit collectors fetish!) and Slippers.

Then my phone rang, Oh OSL ad out from gym!
She was telling me that she won't shop until tomorrow. Just wanna look around, try on new style. ALRITE, typical girls day out plan for two!

...then...

'Ohh PingZ, I go to The Executive ya" smiled.
In the next 2 hours, we were in fitting rooms comparing which one is worth buying. I dunno what made me ask the lady for high-waist skirt but I did. With that, both of us went home with high-waist skirts!

If I can turn back time and reconsider the purchase, I still would have bought the skirt and silky formal tops(TOTALLY LOVE IT). The only thing I would not buy is, the trousers...because, MNG SALE is COOooominG!

Can't wait! I have another pants in mind....heehee.

Gurney Plaza phase two officially open today!!!
Explore..explore soon... this week...heehee.
It's time for CNY shopping anyway!Hooray!

快乐

As my thoughts is getting more screwed up than usual...

The only way to set it straight is...

...through simple and meaningful phrase:

人生不长，
快乐的一天，
伤心也是以天，
那为何不选择快乐的一天呢？

Mindless, Speechless, Decision-less!

In the old days, my life was all about stress. One assignment could drive me to the edge. Worrying about time constraint, I often apprehended. With avalanche of assignments at hand, leaving my work alone is the last thing I would do though some were done half-heartedly and forcibly. Looking at my Diploma Certificate, I would say it was worth it.

Degree is coming to an end, I wonder how would my cert look like this time?
During the transition of Diploma to Degree, I had changed. Minutes spent on day dreaming, hours spent on chit-chat at diners, days spent at the malls...Yep! Hours of window shopping, actual shopping, dining, movies, and air-heading! hahahaha. I would say, my life looks more like a life now.

In the past, I would just blank my thoughts whenever I have troubled minds.
Now, I would pour all my energy, time, love and passion on Assignments whenever I chose not to ponder on reality issues. Ahh, the irony isn't it? Well it is a good and healthy escapism after all =)

Now that, assignments are done. I got to come back to reality. Worries of internship, Tangled feelings, Confusion of my future path. WHAT do I WANT?

Trust me, I had asked myself that question so many times that it rang in my head loudly but to no avail.

For internship, I would follow the stream as long as it is the right stream. I shall pick up some pebbles and weeds from the banks once a while as my valuable souvenirs. Unfazed by storms, I will row the boat till the other end.

For the tangled knot of mine, I would let it loosen up itself. Can you imagine trying to untangle a dead knot? It will take ages or even a futile attempt. This remind me of my childhood days, my hilarious experience with erasers! Once the eraser bounced off the wooden table in school, I would search like a mad person from one corner to the another. It wasn't a 50 cent eraser, it was a 1.60 super soft eraser! No doubt, I was so keen to find it back. At one point, I learnt a new technique; let it go, don't search, it will come back. It might be hours, days or weeks when it would pop up from my drawer, pencil case, or even the floor. Uhh, MAGICAL ERASER of mine!

Future...Future...Near Future... Shall I be safe or venture out?

My live in Pearl of the Orient:

Weekdays: Wake up...Choose nice clothes from ceiling high wardrobe...Drive out for delicious breakfast...Reach office in 5 minutes minimum or 30 minutes maximum.........

Weekends: Wake up...Pull into tracksuits, either drive to park or jog along the beach...Yummy breakfast with family...Stay home or hit the mall....Or cross the sea for hugs and kisses from my furry-big-fat-precious-Momo...

Pro: I own the remote control though I must accommodate my loved ones too.
Con: Job opportunities could be slightly fewer.

My live in PJ/KL:

Weekdays: Wake up...Grab my clothes from hangers...Catch Cab & train or even bus to get to workplace...(Very bias indeed, I cannot imagine any nice food here)...Reach home after dinner time (We all know the traffic here very well)...

Weekends: Wake up...20 minutes jog at the park(provided if there's one)...breakfast at mamak and that could be my lunch too...Then???

Pro: Higher Job opportunities
Cons: No where near my momo!
Transportation...sigh...the biggest issue.
Got to move house again? mentally calculating and organizing my belongings!
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Okay, I better stop. I know members of Animal Family: SL, Grace, JW, Jason, Winnie, Nick and Justina would bashed me for being so prejudice against PJ/KL life.

I am getting negative and more negative each day with the thoughts of staying here.
The only thing that is pulling my superego is, will I venture out again once I'm back in comfort zone? Will I be given better opportunities here?

Which paths should I take first?

Give PJ/KL benefits of doubts?

Or

Work back home and strategist my venture plan ideally?

If only the mirror would talk back to me......

A gap is just a gap

Staring out at the never asleep city,
Flashes of lights from moving cars and static buildings,
My mind was running in circle,
Deciphering every word you had said.

Building a wall between outer world and I,
Your presence gave me sense of tranquility,
Fear not what might become,
I stood on my ground without regrets.

Eyes stared out blankly,
I listened to you closely.

...就像买一双鞋一样，因为喜欢它：
有些人真的很喜欢就一心把它买下。
又有些人因怕买了穿了就脏了， 所以不买。
其余的就买了但却丢在一边...

The world took a 360 degree turn,
And halted when I got it by heart.
Sadden by a mere gap,
I chose to see what lies before me.

The gap is neither my enemy nor friend,
The gap reinforces our stands,
The gap will dissolve when the time is right,
The gap is nothing but a gap.

Birthdays in November

Time really flies, it felt like I was savouring clear soup Tom Yam in Good Evening Bangkok yesterday. 2008 marked the 21st for majority of us except Nick and Jason. 2008 also meant the end of college/uni live. HELLO to working world! Though November has not come to an end and Christmas is still weeks away, I felt reluctant to give in to 'time pressure.' Still, LIVE GOES ON! What else can I whined about?

Hello Tupai! November 14 is rolling near. =)
You are as tough, pretty and cute as ever!

Ohh, here's my little mischievous sister back in Farmer's River. She received airy-balloony surprise from my never-ending-surprise Sis. For my Sis, having 2 younger sisters that have similar birthday really cost a bomb! haha.

Group pictures: (frm left) Jason, JW,Winnie, Ruz, Grace, Me and Nick hiding behind Grace. XD
Thank you my dear friends, I love you guys lots!

One year passed in haze, still good as ever.
Thank you for spending your day with me.
Just like last year, you only wished me seconds before Nov 9.

With love from Grace.
I really appreciate your effort in stealing my pics, designing and photoshopping the layouts.
I'm touched! *Teary*

2nd Novel as Birthday present. Who is giving me the 3rd? heehee.
Lil, will my hair as silky as adv after using Lush? =)

With love, laughters, memories and oneness from my dear Sisters.
Never once, it is not extravagantly wrapped! That tells a lot about her, Perfectionist. :)

I did not wish upon a candle-lighted Birthday cake.
I did not wish upon my sour bowl of pasta.
I did not wish upon flat Japanese Pizza.
My lifelong wishes has been with me everyday.

"I choose to live my life with satisfaction and bliss"

Climb over the wall if you WANT

Few questions to ponder:

How many of us waking up each day with hopes and dreams?
Yet how many of us determined to pursue them?

How many of us feel bored with out surroundings?
Yet how many of us thrive to live better?

How many of us long for loved ones?
Yet how many of us appreciate them when they are around?

How many of us waiting for The One?
Yet how many of us realise that they are right in front of you?

How many of us run away from problems in live?
Yet how many of us realise that escaping is the first step to failure?

I have learnt one thing today,
Brick walls are there for a reason; obstacles in live make us realise how badly we want the things, the people and success!

Happy Birthday, Kor!

Yes, this post is for you, Jasonl.

Please'd to look forward, please'd to look behind,
And count each Birthday with a grateful mind.

~Alexander Pope~

Happy Birthday!

If I can change the blog date back to Oct 30th, I would. =)
Still, better late than Never,right? heehee.