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As the day is getting nearer, I got more excited each day. My heart carries less weight day by day as I looked forward to each hours to have reached the day faster. I put up her photo at work the other day. Nothing attracts my attention in this rectangular cold office except the A4 size pasted on the white wall next to the window pane. When my eyes got tired with constant glares from monitor, I would swiveled to face the tinted windows, I looked far up into the boundless sky. Looking down, the streets, the shops, the people will only remind me the part of me that rued to be here.

Ahh, she knows. I talked to her many times, sitting cross-legged next to her, patting her head, flipping her ears from side to side. Shamelessly, I expected her to understand where I stood at the crossroad. She listened to me closely without a gesture of frustration. As my throat was getting tighter, she looked up and comforted me by putting her right paw on my calf. I gave her a squeeze and kissed her on her head, closed my eyes tight before the tears came.

She loves Ai, my sister and I dearly but she is always closer to Ai. I guessed she knows that I won't be around her much whereas Ai would drive back every weekends to bath her, pamper her with food, talking to her, playing tease-Momo game with her. Occasionally, let me talk to her through phone yet most of the time my furry precious would diverted her attention to some cats running in the lawn or too lazy to react to my voice except her responsive flappy ears that would lift upfront to complement her big and round talking eyes.

Momo, I dreamt of losing you last night. It scared me to death. Looking high and low for you in a huge factory with many other dogs caged in similar boxes terrified me. When I finally found you, I could not release you and bring you home. You were fidgeting and whimpering while I stood there weeping.

Sigh. It's just a dream....

I shall see you soon!

Maybe one day, we should bring you to the beach. Release the insane side of yours.
Eeeeee, who is gonna dry you up later? Me? Ai? or you will never want to be dry again? lol. Water and sand sound like a paradise to you huh?