November Jan

Moving...Moving...Moving

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 09:17:00 +0000

Officially moved to http://novemberjan.wordpress.com

Once Is Enough

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 05:57:00 +0000

"The first cut is the deepest."

Pee pee in the Rain

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 13:27:00 +0000

Why my mum always buy kiddy umbrella until now? I thought. Pouring rain drizzled down my calf as I stood in the middle of the garden looking over my precious golden fur ball.
"She is really powerful in non-verbal communication!",I laughed.

15 minutes ago, I was walking around, up and down, basically aimlessly while she was hopping around happily, poking branches, grass, and drainage hole.
Quite a windy night, looking up the dark sky I saw huge clouds transformed shape within seconds. Soon I smelled the rain.

"Muuuu..MU come inside! Raining soon." I half-shouted.

Just a second before the rain drops got bigger, my fur ball stepped inside the shaded patio. Then she paced in front of me, behind me and around me. Occasionally her eyes met mine.

No air of mischief though, I thought to myself.

"You wanna play is it? Wanna go into the rain?" confidently I asked.

She ignored.

"You wanna go inside?", hoped to see a different response.

"I know la, you wanna play la..go, you may go..play with the rain." I nudged her lightly.

Then she pat my right foot with her right paw...hah!

That was it, not only she was waiting for my permission to get drenched, she also wanted me to go with her.

There I stood, watching the tip of her long beautiful tail moved along the bricked fences, re-exploring her territory. lol.

I was half right only. She is just my same old adorable pampered puppy, always need someone to accompany her in the rain to pee. That was just a detour!LOL in my heart.

Ahh, she can poke my heart, dig up the deepest kept-feelings with tears streaming down my cheeks easily and also make me feel warmth and loved simply with her presence.

Good night MoMo. Love you.

Stopped Walking

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 11:40:00 +0000

I have walked a distance, or maybe I didn't? Few miles is nothing.
As I watched my foot ran along the pavement, I lost my destination.
I counted each footsteps till I got lost in the wheel of time.

Same questions popped up at every stops, same old thing I thought.
Same voice of consolation whirling in the air, will it be soon?

A bag of Confidence was once mine;at least I thought so. It crept off in the dark...
Ego asked, "Will I be here if I have the answer for the questions?"
Superego said, "Of course not." whereas Id said, "Yes."

Uptight not

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 01:54:00 +0000

Recently, I subscribed to WEBMD free newsletter. Every morning before starting work, I would read some articles about health; be it healthcare, skincare, or mental health. Today I found something worth noting and learning. For someone like me, who can paranoid at times and get uptight with time, I hope this helps and also to share with others.

Mind the gap.
Whenever you find yourself waiting—for the checkout line to move, for the traffic light to change, for the Web page to load—get present. Instead of being impatient and wishing things would go faster, be grateful for the gift of a respite—for the 30 seconds or a minute or two minutes during which you have no obligations.

It's 10 am, no more surfing...time to do work...

Tarrying... No More

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 05:40:00 +0000

To have my laptop switched on, open up browser, typed in www.blogger.com on a weekday night is quite rare. Indeed very rare, my last updated antivirus stated June! It's been a while that I stopped updating my blog. I can't say that I was busy, it was rather an event of lost of words.

I realised something about myself. Words only flow when I'm disappointed, sad, or depressed about something. If you see long happy post, it's all driven by this voice in my head, you can't just post up sad depressing stuff...so negative! Come to think of it, only few happy post are posted purely because I want to.
When I'm angry, worst....all will only reach drafting stage.lol.

Obviously,I'm not feeling very well now. I have been feeling unease for weeks, months?
I couldn't count. There's this knot inside me that I could not locate its whereabouts. Neither do I know of its core (for sure) or how to untangle it.

I live from day to day without much anticipation, excitement or enthusiasm.
My BB and close friends are the only one who can create a wave of feelings inside me.
When I'm with their company, I'm just me, the real me.

Other times, I'm just pretty hollow. At times like this, I would just shut my door and be in my own world. I just want to think, feel and find out where and what is the knot. Something is missing, something is lacking in my life. Something that only I can search for and fill in. Hence, writing this helps me to search within.

And I think I just found it...

M

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 03:17:00 +0000

As the day is getting nearer, I got more excited each day. My heart carries less weight day by day as I looked forward to each hours to have reached the day faster. I put up her photo at work the other day. Nothing attracts my attention in this rectangular cold office except the A4 size pasted on the white wall next to the window pane. When my eyes got tired with constant glares from monitor, I would swiveled to face the tinted windows, I looked far up into the boundless sky. Looking down, the streets, the shops, the people will only remind me the part of me that rued to be here.

Ahh, she knows. I talked to her many times, sitting cross-legged next to her, patting her head, flipping her ears from side to side. Shamelessly, I expected her to understand where I stood at the crossroad. She listened to me closely without a gesture of frustration. As my throat was getting tighter, she looked up and comforted me by putting her right paw on my calf. I gave her a squeeze and kissed her on her head, closed my eyes tight before the tears came.

She loves Ai, my sister and I dearly but she is always closer to Ai. I guessed she knows that I won't be around her much whereas Ai would drive back every weekends to bath her, pamper her with food, talking to her, playing tease-Momo game with her. Occasionally, let me talk to her through phone yet most of the time my furry precious would diverted her attention to some cats running in the lawn or too lazy to react to my voice except her responsive flappy ears that would lift upfront to complement her big and round talking eyes.

Momo, I dreamt of losing you last night. It scared me to death. Looking high and low for you in a huge factory with many other dogs caged in similar boxes terrified me. When I finally found you, I could not release you and bring you home. You were fidgeting and whimpering while I stood there weeping.

Sigh. It's just a dream....

I shall see you soon!

Maybe one day, we should bring you to the beach. Release the insane side of yours.
Eeeeee, who is gonna dry you up later? Me? Ai? or you will never want to be dry again? lol. Water and sand sound like a paradise to you huh?

Monique Lhuiller's

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 17 Jun 2009 05:28:00 +0000

I thought I will only see it for real in dreams.

But it's was right in front of my eyes!

Product: Magnificent
Price Tag: great....

Stoned as Statue

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Fri, 05 Jun 2009 03:12:00 +0000

I left my mind and heart somewhere.
In a pool? In mud? or carried away by a stray dog?

After all the ignorance and suppression, it exploded as well.
I guess the gas tank just could not hold the pressure anymore.

Empty brain, empty heart.
The heart beat is there just to make sure my lung is functioning.

I just feel like a dumb blond today...yes, indeed.

When did it start?
When will it end?
Can I get out of this?

My smaller size Furry Friend in PJ

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:26:00 +0000

On Sunday night, I received a furry surprise!

B, Thank you for giving Hilly to me.
It's not just an ordinary plush toy; it's a gift from your heart:)

Pointless to Read.

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Mon, 01 Jun 2009 03:52:00 +0000

The last weekend of May was a mixture of work and fun.

First of all, I surely have a healthy tummy now as I drank quite a lot of Vitagen.
Then I found out that Vitagen only has three 3D Mock Bottle. Each in Butterworth, Johor and Klang Valley main office. How I missed those days where Mum & Sis will worked on the logo and slogans for Vitagen Contest, won consolation prize with 30 to 50 pack of Vitagen. What I did was,see and drink. Never been creative in art. My mum is better than me. LOL.

Roots and dialect play a role in friendship,even for an acquaintance. I was talking to this man in his 50's, well more like him giving me his views on the event. The conversation was very formal due to client sponsor relationship. As usual, "where are you from?" can never run away from a conversation for acquaintance. Once we know each other roots, we start to speak Hokkien and the conversation was not about work anymore. It was about his experience working in KL for 15 years and his plan to retire in Penang. Penangite will always be a Penangite.

Other than work, I went crazy (quite reasonable actually.SALE) at Parkson Sale again.
It's always this 2 brands: The Executive and Park Avenue.
Formal shirt for my Graduation!
And earring to add in my collection :)
Justina Yong fell for Park Avenue too! lol.
This time, I got John Candice too! Thanks to good sale!

On top of that, I think I gained over weekends because of yummy dinners with B.
Funny appetite of mine, I can never eat that much back in home. As if my stomach know that I'm back at home and the portion served are generally smaller hence my stomach shrinks!

This week, I should be able to jog for 3 rounds!

Racing in dreams

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Fri, 22 May 2009 06:50:00 +0000

2 nights ago, I dreamt that my mom signed me up for racing 'class'.
Then, I was given a key to a yellow Lamborghini!*dazzle dazzle*

Hmm, that looked like the Lamborghini I saw in Gurney's carpark!

I took a drive around the town, which looked like Balik Pulau's townside hilly, narrow unevenly tarred road!

My driving skill was so smooth in dreams, I felt what Jason felt.

"Once you drive a Lamborghini, you feel sucks driving other car." Quoted Jason.
Maybe not a 100% exact quote but the meaning is there, excuse me...it's been years.

What a cool/lousy dream I had. If I told mum about it, she will say "Aiya,lao sai bang la!"

I think it's the effect of reading, The Art of Racing in The Rain...too much insights of car racing techniques from a retriever's point of view.

Let's talk about the book, the prelude brought tears to my eyes. The first chapter open up my heart and jabbed deep enough for me to dread the coming years I had been fear off.

As the story flows, I laughed along. I think it will make a turn soon.
I shall sit next to Tina, then we cry hard together! LOL! That was the plan anyway. Read together Cry together.

Now I can't wait to see my Sista!Maybe she can gather my momo's fur, bundle it up like a potpourri for me!! !hmmm....

Amidst

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Mon, 04 May 2009 05:20:00 +0000

As the crowds dispersed into different directions of the hall, settled down at the rows and rows of chairs. We found ours too. Sitting at the edge, I could hear you attending to your cheerful and chatty niece. I heard the side of you that I never know.

The hall was dimly lighted, silence was in the air.
I was in my own thoughts for a while until your hand reached out to mine. Melody of many instruments filled the grand hall. All eyes were on the screen while mine was on you. So good-looking, I thought.
It's not the shirt you wore. It's not how unusual your hair was done. It's not..., I pondered.

Then you turned to me with a smile or maybe laughter cum smile from comedy on the screen. As usual, I would admire the beautiful arch of yours...then I felt a thump in my heart when our eyes met. There and then, I know why I have been feeling this way for a while...I inched nearer to you, listened to the inspiring melody and watched the remaining of the show...

It was a beautiful Saturday night...

Promise

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 29 Apr 2009 06:01:00 +0000

When will I return for real?

There's a untold, unsolved, conflict in me.
There are times that I chose to ignore and let it be the last thing on my mind.
Then there are mornings that I woke up with the thoughts lingering in my head.

Logic and rational thinking pulled me back on the ground.
Yet, feelings can't be ignored forever.

This is one of the days...I need to get this off my chest.
To keep my promise to myself and so to others.

One day...not long from now, I will return for real...

...

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 05:55:00 +0000

What is the big difference between working and studying?

I know the answer now...at heart.

When will I see you again?

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:50:00 +0000

How I wish I could talk to you right now.
How I wish I could pat your flat flat head now.
How I wish I could play with your big flappy ears now.

If only I could...
I would want to jog under the warm rising sun with you by my side...
You must be missing that too yea?

Miss you very very very much, Myarmo.
Never miss you this bad...I do now.

Old habit dies hard

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:30:00 +0000

Stop MM.
Avoid being repetitive!

Forget not the Soufflè

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 13:22:00 +0000

I have not blogged for a long time due to Chinese New Year, house-moving and work. Yes, I got my first job and still adapting to it. I had my ridiculously emotional time, yes i think it's the paranoia. Oh no, the Man on the White Mountain has taught me not to be one. I must not let it creep back to me! It's good to be rational again.

This is a real late entry.

My first Valentine with my Valentine.

@ Max!

The setting was like a quaint little cottage. Small yet cosy.
The menu were as followed. Served in small portion; french style.
Yet, it's really filling...I guessed it is true that it takes a while for our brain to receive impulse stating that we are full!

My 2nd Fav: Smoked Salmon wrapped Philips Crab Meat on Smoked Oysters-Coriander Cous Cous Salad and Raspberry Vinaigrette

Simply love the cheese: Piccata of Chicken Breast-Wild Mushroom Roulade on Lemon Oil flavoured Cherry Tomatoes Gratin and Parmesan Crisp

Parsley-Chardonnay glazed Sea Scallops scented with Amontillados Sherry-Cauliflower Puree and Piquillo Pepper-Aoili

Halibut Fish Fillet with Spanish Cava Sparkling Beurre Blanc Simmered Tiger Prawn, Sea salmon Trout Roes and Chive-Fennel Compote

Heavenly Delicious: Warm Valrhona Bitter Sweet Chocolate Soufflè, Advocaat Cream Brulee, Fruit Medley and Cafè Latte Ice Cream

I was high on dark chocolate from Soufflè

, so this pair of cheery with cute leaf ended up on my plate...

...the sweetness lingers in me...

UmmDenk

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 05 Feb 2009 05:17:00 +0000

Some people are just born to be a hypocrite! Two-faced snake in our dialect.
For some weird reason, I'm part of this irrational-never-gonna-end argument.

I have been shunning it for long and now it erupted.

You, the sly-greedy snake stopped taking advantage of people!!!
Taking advantage of people's sincere intention is just simply downgrading. Silly shitty you!
You will know how it feels like one day! Wait and see...we know what you are up to!

Lu e sai ji tuao dui. lau beh liao. po lo so lu? dan ga gu! bak jiu jiam. chui tok! no tau zhuo.

WTH?!

Stop taking sides people! Stop snowballing it ! Sticking each incidents like a glutinous rice is not helping at all!

sigh...不识庐山真面目，只缘身在此山中! 旁观者清!

"Vivir Para Comer instead of comer para vivir!"

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 14:38:00 +0000

La Bodega Breakfast...Tapas so delicious!
I have been hearing this for quite some time yet it conveniently slipped off my mind.

Until last Sunday night...my first try at Spanish food!

Now I know what is Tapas. It's a Spanish cuisine served in small portion for better tasting!
FYI, tapas also means small in Spanish.

Introducing:

~Sangria~

(From Left: Crispy Zuchini stuffed with spicy seafood mousse,
Lemon & thyme marinated chicken)

Salad of artichoke, asparagus and oranges

I'm not sure if I felt like I was in Spain but definitely a cosy place

Cheers! At last, I've tried the legendary Carrie Bradshaw's all time favourite drinks!

The tapas were served with spanish fried rice, Paella. Unlike typical fried rice, it was not grainy. There is a sourly tomatoes based taste to it with real spicy black peppers!
I love Zuchini as it reminded me off my favourite Sze Chuan fried dumpling.

Last but not least, I would say Sangria is very very much nicer than Cosmopolitan!

Indeed, live to eat not eat to live!

Decided

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 10:41:00 +0000

Life can be quite surprising. I had made a decision that I thought I never would.
Was it on the spurs of a moment kind of thing? I did ask myself a few times.
Put away all the little-annoying factors, I found the answer.

Against many expectations, I chose a path that I would not rue.
I guessed that is more important.
The more I think, the more complicated it is. I shall stop being the usual me for a while and let things take it own course.

I believe things will work out just fine!

No more paranoia, loosen up a little bit more will do :)

My first try, sake has a warm and nice effect.

Just wondering, what will happen if Momo drink this? heeheeheeeheehee.

Anyway, thanks to Lily. I'd watched Marley & Me last week!

Great movie, good combination of tears and laughter. However, the gallons of tears I'd shed for this is nothing compared to 10 Promises to My Dog! I laughed more than I cried for Marley, oh yeah he was that hilarious, which reminded me of my big fat Momo who often did one man show and pretended no one saw her embarrassing moments.

It was so bad that all of us cried and I was sniffing and hiccuping after 2 hours of emotional stir!
Well, my easy-teary big sis dare not watch 10 Promises to My Dog. She sure cry until filiifeelle if she did. And she did cry without watching movie but only read these 10 statements from the book back cover.

1) Listen patiently to what I have to say.
It's true, they don't talk non-sense. They mean every word they say.

2) Trust me, for I am always on your side.
Many of us did not fulfill this but our furry friends never fail to do so. I remembered how she
came to me and let me hug her for a long time when I wept silently.

3) Play with me a lot.
We have TV, games and computers and many many more to distract us BUT they only have
us to make their hours pass easily.

4) Don’t forget that I have feelings too.
Ohh dear, my Momo has a lot lot lot lot of love to give and she needs a lot lot lot more love
back too.

5) Let’s never fight, ‘Cause someday, I’ll be big enough to win.
Heehee. Heehee. I hardly breath when Momo sit on my stomach! Bru...!

6) If I don’t obey you, I have a good reason.
Our furry friends have better instinct and senses than us. Never wrong to trust them!

7) You have school, and friends. But as for me, I only have you.
...this sentence just jabbed my heart. I'm very sorry dear to have studied and live here....

8) Stay my best friend even when I’m old.
*Shiver run down my spine* I will deal with it when the times come.

9) I’ll only live about ten years, so let’s make every moment count.
Every second counts! How you slapped my face with your course paws, how you stared at me
with your imploring eyes that never fail to get what you want from us, how you walked into
the room, dropped your butt on the floor with a loud thud and sent us laughing our hearts out,
how you showed your disgruntled face and hold the grudges until the next day, how you
tempted us to sniff sniff your big flappy ears and massage your tummy for you......all these
moments will not be replaced by others...truly owned by you and me.

10) I’ll never forget our life together. So when my time comes, please be by my side.
It broke my heart to think about it.......

sigh...words whriling in mind...but there is not way to speak it out...

PP B'day Pochi

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 07:12:00 +0000

4 years back, I stepped into a hall awkwardly. Eyes scanning for a good seat, there! I found...
As I approached nearer, I felt this 'stay-away' aura from this tough girl. Our first conversation was,

" You don't have the handbook?" said the be-spectacle girl.
"Erm, no...thanks." I replied as she pushed the book nearer to me for better view.

Soon, we had small chat in class. In 2 weeks time, we really talked over group assignments.
Weeks proceeded into months, one day the conversation popped up.

"I used to think that you are one scary woman!", she said.

Hahahahahaha, it turned out that both of us had that impression of each other!

Today, we have known each other too well. We have gone through crazy years of fun & stress together as well as with Gracie, Lily and Ruz. Then, our family grows bigger with Winnie, Justina, Jason and Nick.

I just want to wish this dear friend of mine,

Happy Birthday Jian Wynie!

XOXO

New Year Eve & Winnie's Big Day

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 06:08:00 +0000

After missing Winnick for several outings, the animal family finally met again on this very day...31st of December!

Celebrating New Year Eve and someone's Big Day at TGIF@ The Curve was a night that brought us all back to our 2008 Merdeka Celebration. The exact table at TGIF and the same euphoric atmosphere. Okay, not that super-crazy-happy but I feel close and sweet at the bottom of my heart. Tease and jokes never fail to present when Winnie Pang is around. She is born to tease people in a way that does not annoy you and Nick is born to tell jokes with a straight face! On the other hand, JW is born to make sarcastic-totally-laughable remarks out of the blue! I love you for that, Jw. Winnie, I can't say I love you...if not, Nick will tanam some homemade bomb in my house :P

Happy Birthday Winnie Pang!!! Officially 21 years old, kindly do not go overboard with your newly claimed privelleges! hahaha.

Win-nick!Not bad, still can recognize you, Nick.

Sexy Lily & Dashing Jason

Hot Salsa JW! MG is so proud of you;)

2 food lovers!YumYum.

Heehee. Another nice shot with 2pai!

Sorry girls, my dashing brother is attached! LOL

Ohh, did I forget to mention that the fireworks was magnificent?

Smiley.
Hugs.
I love my Animal Family.

Justina Yong, I will hug you next time. New Year hugs! *winks*

Awareness

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 08:23:00 +0000

I cannot afford to be blur again.
I need to gain consciousness of my surrounding.
I need to process every word I say.
I need to set the record straight.
I need to be aware of what I am doing.

I am aware of it.
I am aware of what I say.
I am aware of my action.
I am straigthening out the issue.

Rmb 2 Rmb

noreply@blogger.com (Janice Kee) — Sun, 14 Dec 2008 05:36:00 +0000

As one would say, "It takes one second to change the future." Every now and then, whatever we think and do is building our future.

In daze, I felt few transitions in my life. Some put me in deep thoughts, some put a smile on my face, some put a strain on me, some put me in a mingled state of relief and euphoria.

Shun negative vibes, I choose to live on the brighter side.

Asking no questions of uncertainty, I believe my belief.
Moments of bliss forever etched in my heart.
Always fresh in mind, "Remember to remember..."

***

It's very easy to burst a balloon with pressure. Give it some time, the flexible air molecule will seep through between the microscopic gaps. In no time, the balloon will be deflated by itself. By then, it is so much easier to deal with.